C r e s t f a l l e n ' s H e a v e n

comprehend

2006-07-16T21:59:00.000+08:00

i couldnt comprehend.
is it true bad things always never come at a better timing?
18 years. people come and go.
those who should go still dont go.
some chose to leave.
perharps i chose to let go sometimes. am i too naive for all this?

i dont care about bgr's now ..
i dont know what to do or not what to do..
give me back my happy family .

why is everyone leaving at the time i wish they could be there.

woah

2006-06-17T03:14:00.000+08:00

hahaha, wah, so perfectly zhun with what im doing. lols.

all

2006-06-13T01:33:00.000+08:00

this is all i asked for.

=)

2006-06-11T17:48:00.000+08:00

i learn quite lotsa of things for the past month.
i also observed something similiar among all of us.

人因梦想而伟大

being practical gets u nowhere. how do u see this huh?
lets get our brain working. Put all those fun and laughter behind us temp.
after all, we're alr 18, or for some, going 18.

allow me to ask you all this ..
"What do you want to be in 5 years time? 10 years time? and 30 yrs time?"

Chef? Banker? Earn lotsa money? Driving your car down town? Travelling round the world? Giving your parents a good life?

now come a question. "how are we going do that?"
if we can. by when will be achieve all that?

lemme quote an example.
i used to have no dream. nothing at all.
im those happy go lucky type. after all there's nothing wrong being that too. right? =)
i didnt think about the what im going to be in 20 yrs time. ok, short, 10 yrs time.
so.. i really didnt care about studies and all those.

studying hard brings u nowhere nowdays. seriously=/ lol.
but this is not to ask u all not to study lahhhhhh!

so. first. we must DARE TO DREAM.
if we restrict ourselves to our family background, financial means, and give up on what we really wanted. We will never achieve what u want in the first place.

dun tell me that we've to work 30 years, getting a bloody fix salary every month, get yrself stuck in a office work, slogging 8 - 5 everyday. insane. we'll be 48 by then.

where am i going to find the strength to go touring the world-.-!?

formal education gives u a job.
self education gives u profits.

so which do u think. job or profits give us what we want in the shortest time.
lets think together. hahaha!

for those who suffered from failures, sadness, and all other sorts of depressed matters in ur life.
there's nothing wrong with it, but there's something wrong if u talk talk and talk and think u can do nothing about it. LETS GET MOVINGGGGG! Treat every failure as a motivation.

those who break with bf/gf, if u want it back so badly. fight for it.
those who want a bf/gf, initiate it.
those who have family problems, talk out your heart with ur parents. they wun kill u aint? but u all dun cb go infront of them and shout " Eh Cheebye sit down we talk la." This one i cannot say anything lor.

ok thats all. back to fun and laughter section.

BBQ on last fri. great.

if only we can get more people. (p.s i love crowds)
from what i rememberd..

this was so far the more "successful BBQ"
heh! yummy chickennnnn wings.!

but indeed. we took quite awhile to start up the bloody fire. wtffffff.
thx to some genius plan from KL-.- the risk we taken paid off. hahahaa.

lets organise one soon again. more people this time please :)
LETS ALL BE EXTROVERT AND NOT INTROVERT

we must understand not everything comes in our way!
in other words, 理所当然.

=)

-the end.-

wish?

2006-06-05T01:21:00.000+08:00

if i would to have a wish ..

i would wish to return to the past.

if i would have another wish..

i would wish to go to the future.

LOL

2006-06-02T01:39:00.000+08:00

ok, back. due to popular demand.

was talking in irc. until then. LOL. all the fucking things starts to pops out.
midnight laughter. how fun. LOL.

dunnoe why the fuck suddenly all my guys got emo. LOL. infected by me?

below is a great shot.

KangKang = me, wehehehehe = boon.

1.47am, the emo-ing is still going on. LOL.

ok. shall update some on what im doing currently.

-Notice-
i've working, starting my own business! (YES. YOU DIDNT SEE WRONGLY)
im currently expanding my business, and i need business partners and referrals.

Hate office politics? backstabbings? low increment? job schedule forcing u to lost touch with friends!?

As long as u're a KEEN LEARNER. Feel free to contact me. I don't need commitments, what i wan is sheer perserverance.

YES. im providing u a million dollar oppurtunity. SEEMS LIKE LYING? well. seems so.

BUT. im telling nothing but facts.

Come and have a look. contact me at juisin_2001@hotmail.com. TAKING MEANS NO HARM RIGHT? Wouldnt it be stupid for you to miss a million dollar opportunity if u ASSUME that this are nothing but lies!?

FIRST COME FIRST SERVE!
=============================

ok. regarding my jobs. i've some feedbacks from people around me.
everyone's been telling me this would be hard to do..

lemme..share with u something first..

in Singapore, they're 100++ secondary schools..
some are them r bad, and some of them r good.

but did we ever discriminate all the schools just because of a few bad named school?
Of course no right? the same logic applies.

DELTA. THE SCHOOLS I HELD IN HONOUR.

can i ask whats ur first impression of the school?
any different from the time we grad from delta?

big difference right?

and one thing i say first .. im clear minded. im not swayed by the company or wad.
lemme ask, how many of u have a dream? wanna achieve what by the age of 25..?

i used to have no dreams.
but i found one recently.

think about it friends, is what we're hoping for, cars, money, really achievable in short term future with what the school has taught us .. ?

i know u all mean good.. but just lemme carry it on with this.. i believe that i didnt join the wrong company..

so i wish u all can give me da fullest support.

I JUST GOT PROMOTED TODAY. ^^V!

and, i wanna watch my X-men 3. and fuckers outta there !

DUN SPOIL MY MOVIE. THANKS.

2006-01-10T16:56:00.000+08:00

The results of your analysis say:
You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.

You are a person who thinks before acting, intelligent and thorough. You are affectionate, passionate, expressive, and future-oriented.

You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.

You are self-confident and like to bring attention to yourself.

time.

2006-01-08T13:39:00.000+08:00

just spend some time changing my song.
nothing to blog anyway.

now my blog just for pplz to listen song ^^

this song i recommend. "wo hui hao hao de - cyndi wang"

2006-01-02T01:42:00.000+08:00

我怕。

怕如果有一天，我真的鼓起勇气，说出我对你的感觉，我们连朋友都没的做。。
我曾今让你难过。。
而现在你以把我遗忘。。。。

但是现在，
他就没让你伤心难过吗。。。。?

我不能否认，我还很在乎你。。但是，我总不能表达出来。。对你来说，也没这个必要。。
我不是在反省。先听我把话讲完。

我曾今说过，我会照顾你一辈子的。
就算是朋友，我也会。
那是一个我不会忘记的承诺。

我是好想好想跟你好好聊聊。
但我们没一次聊的通。。

ok, english now.
can anyone tell me now, who can i believe in ?
my heart is just sunken the whole day. i've not feel in this way for a long long long time..maybe back to 2004 O's ..

forget it.
u'll think im talking crap anyway.

this will be my last post. i dunthink i'll blog anymore.
anything call me.

what can i say

2006-01-01T08:43:00.000+08:00

p.s: this post is edited twice.

...im bombard .

what a new year.

3 cheers.

im telling myself. im not going to open up myself anymore.
i don't trust anyone else.
how can i TRUST ?

new year = new troubles.
how i hope i can have someone to talk to.
if u dun get da picture. nvm.
if u get da picture. nvm too.

it doesnt matter. my things no longer concern all of you.
im doing it my own way. and i dun wish interference in my decision.
fuckoff.

and right now . i've something to say.
im might be closing this blog down. there's no purpose.
bye

[alright, from this part n below is edited for da 2nd time,]

decided to blog abit more, if not cnt hear me blog song. so nice.
i cant think properly now.
sleepy + moody.
what hell.

我们都曾经明白也都曾经遗憾错过了爱就难以重来不要害怕去坦白怕容易被你宠坏忘了该与不该到哪里找回真爱找回所有遗憾爱的真相就能够解开多给我一些片段拼凑未知的意外失去记忆最初的爱.

one part of da song .

indeed...
new year = new start ..
..
..
..
of troubles.

you can say that as long u think that you're happy you'll be happy.
but you cant deny da fact that you've been feeling low.

i dun like to force myself too much .

31dec2005

2005-12-31T12:09:00.000+08:00

well, so fast, its 31th dec 2005. Last day of the 05' year.

what can i say to symbolise this year.

dunnoe. many things happened.
nothing good anyway.

..

2005-12-30T08:45:00.000+08:00

hello.

its 8.39am.
i woke up at 1am today.
cool.

phone nv ring. cheers?
i've already planned out what to do on eve, which is tmr le.
heh.

Yest..

went interview with chyelong, his sister, and sister friend .
very kewl. dunnoe walk until where. go one ulu ulu place interview.
nevermindless..

there's one line in da song im playing in my blog i find it quite nice..
its goes like this.

我相信，找不到有比你更好的人，你心里理想情人是几分，是不是也会有我的份。。
dunnoe why. just find this line especially attractive.

ok lets skip a topic..
just thinking..

there's so many philosophers around..
everyone had their opinions given on a certain subject.
take for instance, life.

ppl says life's hard.
ppl said too, as long as u perservere you'll succeed.
ppl also say that life is just like a jail term, u'll try to break free.

what im trying to say this. all these are merely beliefs of some people .
they can be great man, noble man, people listens to them.
but the important is.. find the belief of yourself.
it doesnt matter how people doubts how u think.
your belief has nothing to do with them.

there wouldnt be 2 person in da world that exactly clicks/blends.
no matter how well the other one knows you.

dot dot dot.

i am bored.
was telling chyelong. its best for me to speak less.
talking to someone takes especially more effort.
must think properly..then can say.
someone now must be thinking.. since so hard to open up, why speak to them?
fei hua. if i dun wan speak to them i think so hard for what.

all i can say is...
我怕我说错话。。
有些人。。不知道自己是超容易敏感
的噢！

i scared i might even lose this friendship of ours.
there's nothing i can do .. even if i reflected this, or that.
i fear.

aaah

2005-12-28T17:03:00.000+08:00

..i still dunnoe what you r trying to tell me.

ur words and action often left many to be bewildered. -> its true..*nods*

nevermindless.

sians. new year is coming again.

舊的不去新的不來~~~

anyway..
i wish i can haf sometime alone in the new year's eve.
maybe i shall buy some vodka's..
and sit around esplanade or wadever alone.
thats' cool. o.O

where r they going to celebrate-_-?
always play mahjong.. i dunnoe how 2 play lah. x.x

time flies..

alright. i shall spend some time reading people's blog now.
blog later again =D

...

2005-12-27T09:40:00.000+08:00

tell u all something..

i 2 nights nv sleep le..

!~~~~~~~~~~~~

WHY NO ONE CALL ME?

boring u know? -_-

sians..~~ why no one midnight ask me go out.~~ why~~~~?
BORED..~~~~

nvm.. i play maple. =x

anway.. im very hungry now~` =(

manzu

2005-12-25T09:35:00.000+08:00

heh! merry merry christmas !

spend one night outside... !

ist.. met chyelong at 430 at tbp. makan.
i was late ! heh ! paiseh!

den..take cab.. rush down to oriental plaza to meet mel, anica, shimin, jingwen, yeeying, kianleong.

knns. in the end waste cab fare rush down. all late. CHEERS?!

ok. den went to party world.
we SING - SANG - SUNG !~~~

wahaha so funnn.~~
den we went down to esplanade from chinatown NE line.
SAW BOON AND KANGSHENG~~~
w33t~
isnt that nice to see some good friends around? ehehe.
in the end they join us, same with jiawen.

but yeeying and jingwen left in prior-_-!~~

ohya! happy birthday to jingwen !
i owe u a pressie.

den... after esplanade.. went to BMC mac. makan-_-~~
went to mel's hse aft that! kewl.

just return home, taken my shower. time no 9.34am.
just now hear jiawen say her last "actual" sleep is on wednesday..

i was thinking..

i think my last "actual" sleep is ard 1 yr ago-_-.
its late nights everynight.

IM HAPPY~~

but i dunnoe wad response i get prior to me previous post.

i need feedbacks =x
can you tell me? lol

byebye

..

2005-12-24T13:44:00.000+08:00

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heh. spent the whole night yesterday conferencing.

dunkoe why, the main issue always is me-_-"

all i can say is..

我对爱情的执着，包含了很多成分。其中可能包含着遗憾，美好时光，眼泪或不舍。
而我最大的缺点，就是不善达表与自己。
很多话我想说，但说了会让人误会及生气。
跟你讲话时，要想一想再回答。
所以我很沉默。。
但是我没想到的是。。
当我选着面对。。你确以为我心里以将你遗忘或放弃。

而当让我最失落的是，你也看不透我的心。
是沉受着多庞大的压力。

但是，那些以经不重要。毕竟我须要离开我的回忆。
而我一直想说的是。。

对不起。

但讲真的。。你好恐怖-_-

lmao.

但我也希望你们能了解。。
一旦有些东西，
我把她当成我的身命的一部分。。
我是不可能把她遗忘。
就当做是我白痴，傻。
我了解你们的用意。
我很开心有你们这些朋友。
感到荣幸。
谢谢。

我是在写遗书吗。。?哈哈。
很唠叨吧。

肺腑之言wor.

我希望的是，我们的友谊永远存在。
至于有没有缘分，不许强求。
就当我们刚认识，把我当成一个不感表白的最求者。
对我来说，认识你而做你的朋友。
是一种幸福。

感谢你。

还有。。我也有我的理想要追逐，我选择，坚持。
因为我不想在放弃。
如果我的存在是不需要的。。告诉我。
我会消失在你面前。说到做到。

HEH! my chinese pro !? =D

notime

2005-12-22T19:17:00.000+08:00

notime for words.

just change da bground song to this

lyrics: http://mp3.baidu.com/m?f=ms&tn=baidump3lyric&ct=150994944&lf=1&rn=10&word=%CE%D2%D3%D0%D7%EF&lm=-1

pay attention to da lyrics..

byebye

nomoney

2005-12-21T22:33:00.000+08:00

nomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoney
nomoney
nomoney
nomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoneynomoney

no money. =.="

nowadays always tio questioned.
"am i right to do this?" "am i right to do that?"

im just. very fann.

如果天空只剩最后一群闪烁的星，我会让他为你照亮哭泣，让幸福为你指引。
总有一天你会看到guardian angel降临，那是我的心一直在守护着你。。。

他一定能感应。。

... bye

..

2005-12-19T22:03:00.000+08:00

my friend told me his best friend stole da girl she love.

i told him if u wanna love the girl u must first learn to respect her decision.

am i right?

whether he wants to hate his best friend or not, if not a big concern anymore.

since u love da girl..

wish all da best for her.

after all.. love is not equal to being together only.

its more than that.

alright. the past week was great. at least im happy.
chyelong told me i must learn to express myself more to people around me..
but.. finally one thing i think im similiar to my dad. i cant express myself.
i was talking to my mum yesterday..
i told her, when i work, i must give some $$ to my ahma, to her, etc.

she asked me "papa leh?"
i was thinking, why should i give ?

this morning i woke up. she's was preaching beside me. just as expected.
telling me this n that.

after all. HE'S the crack of the family.
notme. not my mum.

i dunnoe why. but all these has been bugging me since last yr october..
yet.. i can share it with no one.

goodbye.

when can i have my class outing.. ?

aaa

2005-12-17T05:43:00.000+08:00

posted at 5,37am.

i dun need to sleep. im super. =.=
just ended a call with chyelong. PHEW.

i love the song tt im playing in my blog now.

..

2005-12-10T01:54:00.000+08:00

3 cheers to everyone !

why? cause i songg what. haha.

ok. basically. another wasted day with chyelong and company. in the end ending up 11pm at BK with chyelong, chengzhi, kianleong, shimin, yeeying and anica. What a day.

tio suan whole day. __ to chyelong. lucky today my mood not bad today, if not just now i sure go home. cccccccccccbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb~~~

WORK. I WAN WORK.

arr...i fw a msg to someone..

she replied me.. nytes.

*cold..* so mei ren qi de one word..
you mei you gen re qing yi dian de greetings? =x

wo xiang de very thru le..

no matter how i feel, or wadever. be frienndss also can be so hard arh ?
<-- innocent me also dunnoe what i've done..

but nvm.. sorry lor.. *bow* ..
next time please give me a "re qing" abit de reply hor. =)

back.!

2005-12-02T23:34:00.000+08:00

ok, one new post. please read.

immmmmm back.!

today went to escape with boon, edwin, ken, amos, jona.

6x Invertor in succession.
4x Pirate Ship
3x Haunted House(the ghost in the end scold vulgar! HAHAHAH)

+++++

all others more

ok, i know wad u all will ask me.

Q: "how's life?"
my ans: "so so lor, love or hate it u still have to live"

Q: "how's exam? confident?"
A: "no ans to this"

Q: "wah so long nv ask me go out ... ? xmas wanna go out anot?"
A: "ok lor. "

Q: "Wah why u sound so dead? cannnn u smile abit?"
A: "*smile* ... No!"

smthing lyk this...

i think wo hai shi shao blog.. pplz not happy.. x.x

errr

2005-10-21T04:11:00.000+08:00

sorry for da lack of posting nowadays. been busy.

today was da the for practical.. somthing went terribly wrong...

i didnt see the solution T .. T.T !!!!!

dunknoe which bastard/asshole put it as the corner corner there.

nvmm... paper come pia again..

i would like to repeat myself...

"im very friendly !!!" ^^v

~~~~

sians..one switch of events... its december again.
i'll try to post a super long one today. lets u read for days..

nowadays keep playing maplestory. sians.
bloody game but so cute/nice to make friends.

i love it.

alrite today morning woke at at 9++ then go makan wif my parents @ chinatown there..
then take cab to outram secondary for my practical [lets not mention this, bad memories =/]

well, rare meals with my parents.
one is so always busy, one i talk to.

doesnt really matters.
i don't care.

oh ya btw, midnight if u cannot sleep.. call/sms me..

i sure wont' be asleep.
sun bian help me raise my bills. [proud] ^^v

im addicted to night life..
for ur info this post was posted at 4.16am.

i just WOKE up.. 1am..

so cool.

ok back to today. after breakfast went to outram..
saw one guy very familiar. wonder whether he's from my primary school.
x.x memories failing me.

been very active this few weeks.. soccer.. basketball.. etc.

found out that everything go out also will see this few person nowdays.. -> chyelong, chengzhi, yeeying, etc.

sec school life rawks.

but..

wang shi zhi neng hui wei.. [if u dun understand, dun read]

after my prac, walk to the nearest busstop wif anica...[she taking prac at outram also]
super sians.

i wanna have chalet..
but it's like so hard..
so.. hard..

time factor is one thing..

public relation is another. [ not me. -.- others.] im very friendly !!

oh ya, went back to school last week to see mrs lian. she looks.... o.o slimmer.
well i guess for a woman getting slimmer was no bad news.

but she's already so slim. malnutrition =xxxxx!!
ok what to type next..

ok another thing i shall announced.

i've quitted IRC. good news?
i thought it was quite good.

it was this IRC which brought laughter and connects me with my friends.
the same thing it was this IRC who went thru wif me for 4 years.
i miss my irc.
but there's always partings in life, and i must learn how to cope with it.
i didnt forget things that went thru me, only hoping that that thing won't ignore me either.
i guess i didnt do anything wrong? =/

GCE "O" levels in 2 weeks.
best of luck.
and goodbye.

eeerrr.. cnt sign here. sians..

1line

2005-10-12T02:57:00.000+08:00

pohgek told me.. " she made an impact in my life "

-the end-

..

2005-10-08T01:11:00.000+08:00

post one entry.

cause i think there's someone thinking of me. x.x

ask me whether im fine?

i would say yes !

ask me whether how's life ? i would say fine !

those are textbook answers. =)

thinking of me? sms to 9 6 4 7 1 1 * *

hahaha..

2005-09-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

h0h0h0 !

im back !

spent one night at anica's house yesterday.

play poker.. mahjong.. tmd keep losing.

THIS TELLS US NOT TO PLAY WITH MONEY ..

ahaha, jingwen .. u very noisy xD

okie la, return ard 12pm today. cool.

come back... = ..sleep.

wake up.. online... read blogs.. standard routine..

arhh.. got a new name, they call me "zhi gan duo luo"

although personally i dun like this name very much, but thank you lah .

..
....
.....

smile :)

importance

2005-09-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

managed to see this somewhere..

"the importance of you in someone's heart might be nothing, but the importance of that someone in you might mean alot."

one more...

"you might not go through with a lot of events with someone, but that someone might go through alot with you w/o he/she knowing. Hence it makes up da importance in you"

awww.. nice lines.

just now with chyelong, chengzhi, jengjye go far east..

spent 50 BUCKS on O U R dinner..

nvmmm..

kept quiet for the whole night.

wonder whether is this da real me or the me behind da mask. =s

im a gemini . i've got double characters.

family + friends + love + studies + anything else = pressure + stress.

don't blame me for bring emo.

im lytt. =D

derrick sing de "piano" i recommend.

...

2005-09-10T01:50:00.000+08:00

i'll never do counselling for people again ! =D

cause i am unable to do what i've always told people. =s

failure.

am i wrong to be so persistent ?

sleep.

2005-09-05T02:52:00.000+08:00

yawns.

2.51am.

super early.

=s

i love nights.

i love my clock ticking down da night.

in a dilemma.

HI!

2005-09-03T00:34:00.000+08:00

Hi !

ask u all some chemistry ...

1 mol of barium + 2 mol of sodium. What would you get?

sms / tag me ur answer

prize winners will get ur wish come true from me =)

bo liaos.

2005-09-02T23:41:00.000+08:00

chao bo liaos. so come blog.

now 1140. ch u showing guess x3.

sians.

can you tell me w-h-y are you doing this to me..?
it's not fair..

yaws

2005-09-02T18:34:00.000+08:00

heh. im back. missing me aint?

31 aug, Wednesday.

went back to bm, see teachers.
time really flies.

i miss those days.
maybe i shall quit blogging soon. ..
cause..i dunnoe wad to blog anymore.

was on da phone with mrs lian the other day.
i was indebted to her anw. She's one great teacher. =D
how am i indebted to her, you all don't need ask me. cause i won't tell .

someone's avoiding me somehow aint. =/
my sixth sense = accurate.
=/ sadism.

i miss 1E2 , 2E2, 3E1, and 4G.
i miss those days where we got cranky everyday after school.
i miss those days amos turning on his english channel singing songs to us.
those were days gone.

People who i've missed..
People who i've known..
have've changed.

perhaps im changing too.

lols.

2005-08-30T15:48:00.000+08:00

lols. im so weird.

chyelong they all ask me don't think so much, lol, i never think leh.

but i dreamt of it for 2 nights. lols.

arhhh.... byebye.

wahah

2005-08-29T16:27:00.000+08:00

aiyah..blog cannot type chinese. very sians.

http://www.xuxule.com/lyric.asp?cdID=04-0379&songNo=2

muahaha., cannot type also nvm =D nice songggg...

http://www.wimp.com

haha, nice web. =D

31dec

2005-08-28T17:04:00.000+08:00

things doesnt look too good.
i'll leave everything till after my O's.

i dunnoe wads gotta over me recently.

yesterday spend one night at anica's house with chyelong n chengzhi.
siao one. play whole night mahjong. pengs. also dunnoe how to play. keep losing. muahaha=D

then just now go down makan breakfast with them...~~ come back continue zzz-ing..

i've changed i realised.
not to say for da better or for da bad. just a change.

i'll continue waiting.

2005-08-27T18:38:00.000+08:00

someone help me please?

im really troubled.

shrink

2005-08-26T23:22:00.000+08:00

i think i need to see a shrink.

b o n k e r s.

anybody wanna watch da movie "drink drank drunk" ? sms me. 20/7 reply. the last 4 hrs for me to sleep one.

hehes.

i think think and think..
got a new conclusion this week.

"i believe that everyone you know got a special place in your heart, the problem is which department is it in..?"

sounds meaningless.
but i find that quite nice. =x

lin jinjie de "jiang nan" . "dou jiang you tiao" really quite nice.
addicted to his songs-.-
but i still stick on to my "chi xin jue dui" muahaha

got li shen jie's concert i sure go.

aiyah, this week, no sms-es from that person..

in class also wandering away.

yawns.

send me a little msg wont you? =/

aitz

2005-08-22T12:47:00.000+08:00

aints. shall update my final post here.

life's so far so good.

yawnsss..
no breakfast.

which kind soul wuld buy me breakfast...zzz..

very tired. mentally tired.
shoot me down please. >.<

cant i live my life normally...?

zzzz..

2005-08-22T02:07:00.000+08:00

yawns.

hungry. now midnite 2.06am.

suddenly ai shang lin jun jie de " jiang nan "

fill with meaning. emotionally charged.

Happy Birthday To Jiaying =D

=D i got my da gu, er gu, and mo gu now. lols.

zzz

2005-08-21T14:55:00.000+08:00

zzz...insomnia..

half dead..................

i think hai shi forgive..

and forget.. suan le =/

yawns.

fuckedup

2005-08-21T02:30:00.000+08:00

i seldom feel so fcuked up.
and can make me rush from one place to another.

I AM REALLY PISSED.

THATS NOT FUNNY.

AND I WANT NO REPEAT OF IT.

FUCK.

knns. cockedup shyt,
tonight cannot sleep again. DARN.

That MMS completely spoil my day.
fcuk.

hao nannn

2005-08-20T02:04:00.000+08:00

it's really hard to love someone.

hmm?
i'll just stand behind you and support wad you do..
i can only see u from a corner..................

yawns.

life's bored.

[copied from somwhere]

With our commitment, love, trust... we make it this far. Amazing isnt it???
Wow-ed!!!
Those sweet words you kept whispering to my ear; bring a smile to me. *hee*
You know I cnt barely do the same. Heee. Feel so akward; so tingl-ish inside. Ahakz.
Is that what love is all about??? *shrugs*
Both of us have flaws. We are helping one another to make amends so tt we cn be a better person right, syg? Hee

[-end-]

comments by me: ..got people dun believe.. i also bo bian..

aaa

2005-08-14T14:30:00.000+08:00

im really happy this week !

im soooooo happy !

ok nth more to say.

im happy. =D

electricity

2005-08-06T23:56:00.000+08:00

lets do some physics.

Q = It
V = IR

P.D = JC -1
Effective resistance in a series circuit = Sum Of Total Resistance.
Effective resistance in a parellel circuit = eg. 3 resistors together
= 1/R1 + 1/R2 + 1/R3
= 1/R
ok more to come, lazy type. =D
i must get a1's. im ambitious.

arhh.. hp quite quiet...
lets see..who msg me ist.. =D

msn..dunnoe why, suddenly 4 - 5 ppl msg me 2gether. -.-
starting to miss me righttt..

wee..

2005-08-05T19:54:00.000+08:00

ok, im back to blogging, later that charbo say i nv blog again =x

*yawns*

Can anybody teach me how to do QA's?!
*bloodyhell*..

2nd Aug was agnes bdae.. i smsed her happy birthday..

4th Aug[yesterday] was chyelong's bdae, i went to school and wish him happy bdae..sunbian take back my NDGE disc...~ seeing those sec one's, so kawaii, suddenly think of myself during sec one's! LOL. so kawaii. =x

Today is Siti's birthday, i called her around 3pm, to wished her happy bdae, she say she siang me leh ! *disappointment* .. not chiobu. hahahs.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL TH ABOVE.

this mth so many ppls bdae, lucky im da type who will nv spend on presents=x *im chao stingy*

hais. here comes da confused part.

im already trying very hard to forget everything..
xy say de, time will help me..
seems like as time pass more, the deeper it carves in me.

im turning myself to lee shen jie's superfan, his everysong can sing out my feelings at diff hours of da day=x

wahahahs...

wo xiang.. wo hui deng..
who will understand me..

btw..yest @ sch..saw jingwen's sister..
she's da one that so xl in friendster=x
wan die arh she.
lucky im kind hearted. =D

then saw one sec 1 girl, damn attract my attention.
keep flashing thru infront of me. wah laos.
sigh, the chyelong keep saying one sec 1 girl ke ai..
say he wanted to "ren" her as ganmeimei..
but in the end he says.. " wo bu ren ganmeimei de"
pengs !

" if one had to leave, the most miserable thing isnt someone gonna leave you. It is the other party doesnt knew that if you stays on and he/she would get hurt in the end but they thought that they arent there for u anymore. Love might not be everlasting, but sometimes, someday, someone, would make it forever. Forever doesnt come only on the appearance, it comes from da heart. Even the person u love isnt with you, you can silently care for them in the dark. Love doesnt need to be said. "

this few lines...
i typed mysef one. nice hor =x

byebye.

[continued at 2.40am]

tmr got classes,
can't get to sleep.

someone keep running into my mind.
time isnt a healing factor anymore.

im depressed.
wahah. so glad, im depressed.

im really standing at the middle of the crossroad junction..
who could guide me out ..
to somewhere near you..

...

2005-07-31T01:40:00.000+08:00

been indulging in games these few weeks.

August you lai lerr..
sigh. -.-..

sick for one week.
still sick-ing =x

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."

to think of it.. no one understand me that well too .
kewl.

im still holding on to something i know.
perharps..somethings really takes time.
especially long for me.-.-

what if.. i cant?

sick

2005-07-24T01:29:00.000+08:00

sick. flu.

finally. i've broken down.

i dunnoe how long more can i go on.

"my life is like a guitar w/o its strings.., useless"

"i used an eraser to rub away my memories, but it was carved inside me"

"i then try knocking it flat, but it brought me more pain."

profound anot. =/

i will prove everyone wrong and i will work for wad i want.
i'll never give up.

=D

*bows*

*waves*

*muacks*

feel like hitting me ?
you can't reach me =D

im lame.

weee !

2005-07-23T00:05:00.000+08:00

im back from dead.

still nth to blog.

miss me okay.

....

2005-07-10T12:26:00.000+08:00

good morning. -bow-

haven makansss. hungry >.<

im soooooooo.......... feeling low.
weee, am i going to die any moment? =/

im despondent..real despondent ..
i need a doctor .

yawns

2005-07-09T01:25:00.000+08:00

cant get to sleep.

http://news.chinatimes.com/Chinatimes/newslist/newslist-content/0,3546,110511+112005070700363,00.html

i chose c =D

let me analyse myself.

im a person with deep thoughts, much thinkings. Tends to settle everything myself and when im mistooken, no matter how much i tried to explain, things always goes wrong. cause i dunknow how to express myself.

rawks.

2005-07-08T19:37:00.000+08:00

im back.

i've been lying very low...............................................

cause im studying.

Objectives. : Maths A2, Sci B3 , Humanities, B4,

2 3 4 , sounds nice.

oOOOOOOOOooooOOOooOoh.........
so boring. zZz.

i think its time.

i should make a decision.

Fang Qi, Fang Kai, or ...

lemme think.

short

2005-07-04T17:40:00.000+08:00

i like yida's "Na nu hai dui wo shuo"

bye.

...

2005-07-03T21:05:00.000+08:00

bored.

no mood to blog.

so make it short.

someone asked me a ques yest.

"What if i die in one wk?"

that was really a difficult question.

i bet i'll lock myself up.

wad if something negative pops up.

for once..im worried too.

...

2005-07-02T16:25:00.000+08:00

dunnoe why, yest cnt sleep. on da bed turn here turn there 3 hours
..
den finally zzz..

da-ber-yew-hedge-why?

"我知道你的痛是我给的承诺。。"

can read ?

boring.

hot.

stuffy.

sigh.

lemme tell u a story...once upon a time.. there was a boy, called tay juisin ,
he fell down as he was running .
he stood up bravely !
and guess wad he did !?

he cried !

bored>.<

those who thnk i've cracked a stupid joke please msg me :x im boreeeeddddddddddddd.

"i'll will not go back to da past, but i'll work on da future, if only im given da chance once again"

zzzz

2005-07-01T14:58:00.000+08:00

early in da morning, quarrel with my mother.

zzzzz

now 3 pm, breakfast also haven eat

zzzzz

wo dao di you mei you shi qu ni ...? i also dunkoe.

im so confused about you .

everything sucks.

happened to read a line in one movie ive watched.

"zhi shao ni bi wo hao, ying wei, zhi shao ni ke yi xuan zhe ai wo, huo bu ai wo.. dan wo zhi neng xuan zhe ai ni, huo gen ai ni.."

maybe hen fake bah, wo jue de man nice de. at least i believe.

haha

2005-06-27T11:16:00.000+08:00

yawn. good morning everyone.

im hungry >.<

my msn yesterday was "x___juisin_ . love = commitment + sacrifices . something we're not ready for"

then i recieved 2 copies of love factors from 2 diff ppl. :x

one was "love = happiness + joy"

the other one "love = fairytale + question marks"

lol. so was loveeeeee ?

when u loveeeee someone, you can nv try to apply ur strength into their weakness.

profound?

[explaination]

You can nv try to point out the thing they've done by comparing yrself to him . If you doesn't make da mistakes, it doesnt means that he would. That's character. something cant be changed easily.

get it ?

if u still dun get it.
please contact Prof. Tay @ 9___110_ or email me at ...
all copyright reserved 2005.

human.

2005-06-26T17:22:00.000+08:00

xiang hen jiu, finally thought of one proper line..

"in ur life, friends come n go, but friendship naver drift."

how true?

i have a ex-classmate, lets not say who.
ask him watch movie. he say only wan watch with POLy friends.
this person. can fuckoff and die.

i felt that everything in this world we want, we must work for it bah..

take for example. if u wan eternity of something, of course u must had some commitments and sacrifices.
self-indulgence will only cause u and friends more despair.

siansss..

morning..wake up @ 12.. ask me go out ..."wedding lunch" -.-

really waste my time.
life's bored.
who's willing to talk to me?:x

zhou jie lun - jie kou.. hao hao ting..

newcomp.

2005-06-23T11:10:00.000+08:00

what should i do ? im in da dilemma.

its hard to describe my feelings anymore.

zhun

2005-06-21T01:23:00.000+08:00

5th June Unique way of thinking,strong and independant way of thinking.Impulsive and always wants things done fast,loves to express yourself and aviods misunderstandings. Strengths includes: Quick to act,Ambitious and competitive. Weakness includes :Trail of thoughts too complicated and scattered and gets easily impatient.

got that.
quite accurate.

but i think im quite patient lorrr..

hmm....

2005-06-20T19:46:00.000+08:00

think today i quite happy bah,
i think so.
so im blogging !

geez. a rather peaceful day,

lee sheng jie's "wo dong le ta" not badd.
a very nice song,
somehow resemble's leehom's "ai cuo"
think inside got one line..quite nice.

it goes ly this.

"xin zai tiao, lei zai piao, ni zou diao"
simple and special. nice sentence.

geez, tmr changing comp, finally.
but my songs all gone.
sians. must find time put in da songs again. so boring.

today i shall not blog in any sad stuffs.

lets count..

2005-06-20T02:03:00.000+08:00

lets count..how many entries had i made/edited today..

6 ? 7 ?

dunkoe.
im so bored.

life just sucks.
its been a long time since i said this.

everyone's so busy.
i can only face this blog "su ku".
ke liann me .

one thing i shld think about.
shld i cut less my online time?

maybe life wuld be easier for both of us.
just dunnoe wad am i thinking.

alrights 2 + am now.
suddenly tot of z chan's "ling chen 3 dan zhong"
omg his song sometimes also quite sad.

may i love you -> huan ri xian ->ling chen san dian zhong -> mo ri zhi lian

every song makes me think n think.
SIGH.
a big SIGH.

titles..?

2005-06-19T20:23:00.000+08:00

im always updating..once/hr.

played all my songs..
all turn out to be sho sad..

tonghua, shou fang kai, chi xin jue dui, etc..

fav's but.. nvm.

got someone sms me..ask me who is li lao hia..-_-"
lol, it's so funny.

someone said tt wo de blog hui rang ren xiang hen duo i think..

wo zhen shi tai huai le:x

tmd. headache you lai ler. i really hate it.
im seriously falling down mentally.

i fear..a fear of failure.
i want to do well in my studies.
i want to learn how to be a good lover.
i want to learn how to give my best.

but im always talking only .
when will i succeed in all those? f a i l u r e . . .

even msging a "sorry" , i don't dare.
i thought..sorry wuld be futile.
cause the damage is there.

so everyone remember this. sorry is a holy word. don't use it always.

jie shou ?

2005-06-19T18:20:00.000+08:00

...yest modem spoil. today morning chiong to plaza sing. to buy another one! h0h0 !

shun bian... buy a new computer. LOL. :D :D tuesday coming. kewl !

hehs. that's da happy thing to be happy about.

nxt week, parents n sister going genting.

left me n bro.

damn sians.!

who will entertain me?

jie shou .... hao nan. im a person of bad character i think. =/
crying, is not my forte anyway..
regret, is not a solution..
if it's destined, i'll be there one day.

qi shi..we're too young for BGR's.
problem is, wo r too mature, in the sense that we know too much this type of adult stuffs.
another problem, we're too childish to handle this type of things.

bi jing...boy/girl relationships is not necessary.
but...wo hai shi hao shang xin de.

mad me, so many mths leh.
MAD. please give me a good scolding.

i've nothing. nothing at all.
but superfluous amount of feelings only.

am i devoted? or am i a lovelorn?
just what am i thinking about?

....

2005-06-17T23:56:00.000+08:00

just hap. to read this line, so feel like blogging.

"You cannot create of force when love is not destined to be, neither destroying it when it's meant to survive"

everyday got sentence lyk this.
everyone got a diff theory on love.

read liao also yan hua hua >.<
i don't trust this type of lines.

there's another post below. continue reading.

btw..

i've da courage to walk beside you, but do u have the courage n willingness to have me walking beside you again ? you might just run off too, might just kick me aside. this is just a quote, dun read too hard in it.

xin ku..

2005-06-17T15:41:00.000+08:00

im getting sleepless nights once again ..

yest "tu ran" headache again..

think i know whats da reason behind ..

wo de mood yue lai yue no good ler.
although i kept maintaining a happy manner to my friends.
i know im going somewhere wrong in me..

*zhen de hen xin ku*

got loads of things in my mind, but i cant say it out .
no one might listen anyway..

somethings, say ler, ni sian, wo ye sians.. but cannot be avoided.

the longer this drags on..the longer im finding myself in pain .
sigh.

can someone help me ?
but please, dun tell me to forget, neither let time flies.
cause i know,
i can't.
and dun tell me, dun try how i know .
i've tried either.

l-o-v-e is a very complicated thing, you might continue to love someone w/o love in return.
however, it's worth it.
better then letting somone who's with you down when you're thinking of another.
how do u define love?
i think it's a responsibility and commitment to da relationship n chemistry among a couple.
you have to carve out a future together.

i dunnoe, whether im still a friend to you .
but i only hope, i can be here for you, no matter as a friend or what.
i can only hope that you're happy .
when you're sad, im here..
hope i wun be a disturbance to you.

hehs. i sound like a love idiot.
am i faithful, stupid, or guilty ?
guilty of killing ur faith in me..

i really got lots and lots of things to say..
but that makes me wonder..
would u listen? avoid? or just listen for fun and forget everything?

really hope we can find time to sort things out.

goodbye.

...

2005-06-12T15:01:00.000+08:00

now i can see, why everyday so many people sad..

cause there're so many songs to remind people of their sad past..

it's true..

___x ni ku zhe dui wo shuo, dong hua li dou shi pian ren de, wo bu ke nen, shi ni de wang zi __x

but horrrr..

____x ye shi ni bu hui dong, cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou, wo de tian kong, xing xin dou liang le.. ____x

Guang liang - tong hua.

nice song, usually dou shi man sadd de..

tu rang xiang qi .. dou jiang ... you tiao this song.

smile !

2005-06-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

ok! lets start off this post with...

the songs of the week !

number three..

Lee Sheng Jie - Shou Fang Kai ! k e w l !

reason for nomination [ cause i shuang" cannot arh, the song so nice. ]

number two..

Lee Hom - Forever love !

reason for nomination [ cause im still shuang" lor. ]

ok ! it's time for the numero uno !

Lee Hom - Ai Cuo !

Reason [ nice what ! meaningful ]

Congratulation to lee hom for hogging on to the 2 nd and 1 st spot this week !

The winner of the sms unit contest will be given my t-shirt with my signature @ the back.

im sho lame. [i think those who r reading now must be thinking.. " glad that u know"]
hehe.

ok im bored.

_x this section is specially reserved for my beloved junior: felicia ...._x

she asked me to write something nice about her.. ok.
i TRY to think what's nice bout you. haha.

ok, my beloved junior, ..

is funny..

kawaii..

humorous..

guai l*n . . [ oops ! joking joking ! ]

aiyoh.. tmr cannot go out, if not fall down..
tell too many lies.. *sigh* :x

_x end of section -x LOL!~~~

wanna buy a new comppppp . . .

im trying to be cheerful~~~~~~

yes, someone, please make me laugh.

but don't make me fall in love with you~~~!~~~

im a bad lover. gees !

smile :)

suddenly thought of this line..

__x bu nen gei ni wei lai wo huan ni xian zai ... an jing jie shu ye shi ling yi zhong dui dai.. dang yan lei liu xia lai.. shang yi chao zai.. ___x

wonder wo de lei yi liu xia lai duo shao ci ..

hehs.

2005-06-11T03:24:00.000+08:00

im beginning to suspect myself.

am i something wrong ?

i know..i need to let go.

many had told me, scolded me, i must let go..

but seriously, very seriously..i know i can't .

how can i erase a memory ?

how i can let go of something in da memory?

just in case u don't know, im referring to my brains, not CPU .

sometimes i wish im a robot, where pressing a few buttons will erase da data on da hard disk.

forget this.

so late ler, im still blogging. sians.

regretting something i've done.

that time bluff jiaying they all ..im sorry .

im really sorry . to anyone who happened to heard of this.

i guess there's no need for me to explain myself now.

sincerely, hope u accepts my apologies.

friends aint? =/

anyway. 3.30am.

im fcuking hot !

shit this shit that !

i felt that im a changed person.

maybe better, maybe worse.

where's da ministry of laughter..?

erhhh.

2005-06-10T20:45:00.000+08:00

erhhh , what can i blog ?

ok . one week has went by ..

attending lessons. c o o l . i passed my science after 2 weeks of lessons ! 24/36 . Cool aint?

cause paper too easy muahaha :x

close one eye also can pass. zzz..

hmm, typical me. i always love to think.

even braincells all die out, also bo bian..

cause that's me .

i always got a thinking of mine.

" A friend, won't go beat you up when u did something wrong, even though you're in da extreme wrong. "

"A true friend will only tell you where u went wrong, even you're a damn c h e e h o n g guy around."

true aint. thought of this, cause everytime my circle of friends always got internal strife. :x

where am i going to stand? :x ok. im n e u t r a l .

you gotta accept someone's strengths and weakness so the opposition can also accept ur strength n weakness right? :/

that time xy say im living in da world of my own..

who isn't living in da their world anyway?

i miss. my. class.

爱错

2005-06-06T20:17:00.000+08:00

北风毫不留情，把叶子吹落。
脆弱的她选择了逃脱。。
叶子失去消息风才感觉寂寞，
整个冬天北风的痛没人能说。。。

我从来没想过，我会这样做，
从来没爱过，所以爱错。
我从哪里起飞，从哪里降落。
多少不能原谅的错，却不能重来过。。

翻开回忆角落，完美的生活。
以为幸福都能掌握。
仔细回味当初，那个故事背后，
oh.... 原来是我，
犯下从没承认的错。。

多少不能原谅的错，
请你原谅我的爱错。。

sometimes..

2005-06-04T19:45:00.000+08:00

4 hrs 15 mins more to my b'dae^^v

suddenly gan chu liang duo. [mixed emotions]

thought of alot of things.

first, wo jue de, i am someone who is.. na de qi, er fang bu xia de ren.. whether im willing or unwilling to forget something.. its really hard.. but no one seems to understand. They all only know to tell me, " slowly forget.." , " it's da past.." ..

but its really hard, esp. hard for me. anyway not everyone can fang kai something so easily..

suddenly thought of my bdae last year.. everything was there.. atmosphere..friends.. just lacking someone ..

it doesnt matter anyway.

later you will think im too free, typing all this "nonsense" to you. to you is nonsense lahhh.

this is my fondest memories. something i dunnoe how to let go..

nevverrr minddd ... cause

this is all a past.. a memory to you only.. we're on different paths of thoughts.

arhhh .

shyt...! why am i feeling ly this again.

let me be.

looking ahead.

2005-06-03T16:00:00.001+08:00

im back.

been attending lessons regularly, and conclusion of the week..

i must been very playful in class last time.

maths seems so easy to me now, perharps i took da sub before? i died under da chapter trigonometry last year, ..merely spend 1 hour doing da chapters few days back and got my ans for my homework mostly correct. -achievement- . Didnt get to get all correct in school last time..

sin a = o/h
cos = a/h
tan a = o/a

cousine rule = a2 = b2 + c2 -2bc Cos A .

if not..

Cos A = b2 + c2 -a2 / 2bc

arhh.. wonder why i didnt do well in school.

- Love expects no return -

so if u love someone, there isn't a need to let that someone love u back. btw, not interested in bgr's. don't come pester me with this. i wan to study study study !.

btw... June 5th. this coming sunday. my b'dae k ! *hint liao, be smarter hor. *

im mad.

hahaha..

2005-05-21T00:50:00.000+08:00

hahaha... life's been great. working hard on my physics. Reading notes even on da bus.

Just read jiawen's blog lorrr... alamak. always fancy telling people her theory of life. -so sian- Your friend so sad liao, still say until lytt... ur friend see liao wun cry is gei gei one.... *walkoff* ..

nb, although resign liao, but due to shortage of manpower, kanna ask back by my aunt for 3 days, tell me friend there they also laugh lor! tmd, me now is diligent student lor. Long long ask me back once will do ler :x * i miss everyone there * " ...arhh..everyday so many chiobu's walk past..." .. oops.

online's getting lifeless.. unlike how i started online.. so dead.. quiet..

Where did all my seniors ran to ? >.<

ohya, read until jiawen's blog, hmm..always sure got something she said i dun agree oneeee... * everytime xiang dao she me jiu type she me * ... later one day sure think twice... :x <- words from lao niao.. me

sayonara !

im cute. ^^v

it's true..

2005-05-16T02:07:00.001+08:00

yea! finally ! no more work !

good news bad news?

Well, to me, mixed emotions. :x

zhui jing xiang tong hen duo... btw, always wanted to change my blogskin lorrr, tt time thought of creating one, gave up halfway. :x

-impatient me-

Anyway, i think i've changed, slightly for da better. ^^v cheers !

actually, i've been thinking more then what i can possibly think .. headache. :/

Saw one post on "giving up" .. yea, true, anything can be given up.. but once emotions is formed, do you think it can be just thrown away lyk rubbish? if it is, there's no real feelings involved, only fake illusions.

eh. no offence. everything here is pure personal opinion. read if u wan, dun like it can click the small little box with the "x" at the top right corner :x

Working had really changed my attitude towards many things..

Now i learnt, if i want something badly, i must ist think, am i good enough to own tt thing, am i ready, and i must not only talk, but do wad is necessary. Talking is futile.

Right now, only wanna get my results right. allow no distractants.

I need time. plenty of it.

im sorry, really sorry..for wad i've done.
to you, sorry might not be a cure..
to me, it's every alphabet counts, from my heart.

haha, update soon.

btw, im sorry daddy! :/ hope u dunch mind ! forgive me soon! :(

it's true..

2005-05-16T02:07:00.000+08:00

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2005-03-20T03:02:00.000+08:00

Recommended Song Of The Week: Lee Sheng Jie's Chi Xin Jue Dui, Shou Fang Kai, and Ni Men Yao Kuai Le.

Sigh ! I am tired ! im hafing frequent headaches.

im finding it hard communicate with her, am i too stubborn into holding back something between us? Should i really let go?

i tried, but to no avail.

That 3 songs will explain how im feeling.

...sigh.

2005-02-19T02:11:00.000+08:00

posted this, cause im lost once again.

i thought i had thrown everything behind.

everything seems fine. back to normal. with the exception that im too quiet @ times. probably learned to be quiet during the holidays.

this few mths has really be hectic.

i play, i slack, i worked, and i got my pay :)

Everyday on the long bus journey to my work place and on da way home..the only person that thing that came on my mind, is you.

I onli just realised that you're still deep in my heart, something i didn't wanted to lose.

really wonder wuld u understand ..sigh. it doesnt really matter now aint.

im still hoping one day that you'll come back to me.

foolish you can say me, or..stupid, wasting my own time.

i'll wait.

work has really been easy...

just that sometimes customers flux in. knn. work like hell.

SINGAPOREANS CAN QUEUE ANOT. EVERYONE LAW BY LAW. OKAY!?

Don't cut queue. make my life easier, learn to queue. okie.

And some customers, come buy thing. look so guai lan, talk even more xialan ! NLH. see their face also dulan. nvm. Customers is always right! Buy thing, must show guai lan face. That's right.

and btw, sorry, now then update my blog. ^^v

i hope that everyone didnt miss me that much though:)

has been cutting down my time online..kinda successful eh?

i think it's really time to start another chapter in my life, not obsessing on playing anymore.

i'll work hard, to get what i want. including her.

but right now... lemme slack awhile ist.

Dunnoe why, i find myself talking lesser nowadays.

Probably due to certain unhappiness mths back. although now still abut depressed. i guess it's inevitable.

A message to all couples: Each step a step back, everything will be fine. If the other party really love you, he/she certainly won't mind baring their hearts with you. Neither there will be misunderstandings.

Sigh.

Miss me dudes.

I'll Be Back.

new year eve

2005-01-01T07:49:00.000+08:00

im very confuse now..

am i supposed to get over her? But i just can't get her off my mind ?

was enjoying my eve until some friends told me news about her, then i realised that i still care, even though i don't want to, a surge of anxiety was flowing inside me. What da fuck.

Sometimes, i do hope that she'll give me a little more patience and understanding...how am i going to salvage the situation when she insist the whole thing on her own logic..and i cant be bothered to talk..

i want her back, its true..that i need her.. i know, i may not be able to give her what she wants, but cant she understand that im trying hard and when everything blunders up, she just do it her own way.. im felt shattered too..

i want her back. -final-

DON'T FUCKING ASK ME WHAT'S GOING ON OR ELSE IM GOING TO COCK UP YR BLOODY KEYBOARD SOON.

d e s o l a t e d

2004-12-21T02:38:00.000+08:00

been pondering...

been doing some serious reflections....rounded up one thing........i cant erase her off my mind..why..? im so stressed up with this that i ended up sleepless everynight...............-sigh-

whenever i need someone, someone wuld leave me........is this all destined?!

Come back to me! Whatever i lost ! Come back to me ! I want my family, my academics! my love! whatever !

Cock up life. FuckOffFarFarAway!

hai..

2004-12-04T02:12:00.000+08:00

候鸟

你的爱飞很远，
像候鸟季节变迁。。。

juz return from my 3 days 2 nites chalet at downtown east..phew..fun! Listening to S.H.E - He Bin Gong Yuan ryte now... ar..still feeling quite blue these few days...found out that i luv my friends more den my family...hope everyday got chalet:x haiz..what to do? i had my share of joy and laughter..and i guess its time..to work...when's the next chalet?

Shimin = Silent Killer,
Chyelong = Assasin, swift and accurate
Kian leong = hmm..always kill unintentionally..:x
Jiaying = ahaha, the "cute" killer :xxx
xinmei = mad killer! Clever detective !
Kenneth = maddog.
PohGek = eh...? always kei siao at one corner..:x
Agnes = dunnoe wad to say leh..
Me = Ehx? u all give me ur comments on my Tagbox :D

Chyelong: *blink*
Jiaying: "Wo si liao" [act cute]
Agnes: "HA HA HA HA" [luff like no one's business]
Shimin: [Keep quiet]
Kenneth: *um chio*
Kianleong: [reveal his ACE] "Kenneth, ni !"
Kenneth: "Wo? Bu Shi Wo Lor!"
Kianlong: "Fuck! Cai Cuo Liao !"
Chyelong: "Shi wo la! ben dan !"
All: "hahahahahhaha"
Kenneth: [Guai lan] face me: "lai la! wu ji lai la"
Me: [pounce on kenneth]
Kenneth: [screams] *censored*

Chyelong joins in. and blink and blink..and blink..

arrrrh.., i really hope my friends will always be dere..
i wan another chalet !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Came to realised..actually many people's family also face da same probs as my family...hai...tian ya lun luo ren...hah..

When will we haf this fun and laughter again..?

2004-11-25T06:42:00.000+08:00

I Cry Silently....

I Cry..Hopelessly...

Feeling So Lost....

S-h-a-t-t-e-r-e-d HEART...

Im feeling so lost..can someone help me..?

Encore

2004-11-13T20:34:00.000+08:00

Hebe R u l e s !

Yes! A long awaited one...finally S.H.E arrives in town to promote to new album and concert. And Finally..i got the album yesterday. The album was great, dun say i bias la, but really very nice. I'll rate it 9/10.. Lets take a peek at the new album..

Arh!!!! Hebe i love you !

This one is one of my favourite pic of S.H.E..^^ Hebe rulez!

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2004-10-31T19:05:00.000+08:00

B R O K E N Heart..

Completely..down..

tmr O lvls liao..time is going fast..

Good luck to all candidates.

Flying without wings

2004-10-30T13:21:00.000+08:00

"Flying Without Wings"

Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover's eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry

You'll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
In any given time or place

It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
Cos you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings

And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends

I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings

..

2004-10-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

ar...this part of my life is indeed u n f o r g e t t a b l e..

i guess this is how one's life shall go..and this is indeed da sweetest part of my life..

Had my last "official school day" yesterday, kinda feeling low, cause thinking that i can seldom see my friends anymore, that sucks. Miss loke is right, secondary school life is indeed one's best chapter...

PE Lessons yesterday was great, had a softball games with my classmates which my team eventually lost, guess jingwen was blaming me ya :x paiseh la, aint really in da condition to play as im still feeling kinda sick today.. well, the atmosphere was there, i guessed we've enjoyed ourselves..As PE has always been my favourite lesson since Primary School, yesterday's lesson fit in da my "Secondary School Chapter" perfectly, putting a nice ending to it..sighx...No PE anymore, where can we find such fun and laughter again..? aint that true..?

I find tt i had really slacked over da year..from an ACE student in all subs to now a failure in most of da subjects..wad gotta into me man? perharps too much games indeed harmed me and i only realised it now. no. Not Now, but long ago, but im too lazy to make a change ...sighx, who to blame? ME

woah, i wrote a kinda long post without knowing...

So sad..everything's going begin again, 2 yrs down da road..National Service. i heard that its tough inside. Im Not Afraid ! im going inside to endure! endure! and endure! That's my policy. :) But i just heard that today inside there, some sections are usually infected with gays, oh man! cool ! please let me off on that. :x

Thinking back, there are really many things worth remembering over this 4 years..Sec1, when i first stepped into Delta, omg!i remember sawing JY. Gosh :x (now sitting beside her sho ke lian :x but she very good one, always help me, and most importantly, ENTERTAIN me..yea, that's da word, aint im right? ahah) yea, and tiangti and eric i think, and the teacher i went to see eventually turns out to be my form teacher for 2 years..That's Miss Loke..yea, she's really patient with us..good teacher, just that we arent in luck to be taught by her..Sec 2, just rocks with my class. 2E2! i will never forget that. Havoc man, hafing such fun and laughter in a class, is such interesting, how i wish that i can get back there and enjoy it once again..Sec 3, new class, new atmosphere, but it was actually fun and interesting, until now, the EVOLVED version of 3E1, oh my gosh. Damn Steady one tio bo !? If time allows..i believe all of us wuld wad to be back there..

This 4 years = Complete fun and laughter.

Aitez, This is for today, O's coming dude!

Good luck to those who r taking O's ya! Get Rock On!

Determined

2004-09-24T20:13:00.000+08:00

Hmmph! Complain complain complain! OK LA..THIS TYM I"LL MY MY POST MEANINGFUL AND LONG...:x

haix, been really tired these few days due to my prelims, arent hanging online animore as u all can see..tinking back..

Time really flies...

Been walking past Delta everyday, and thinking the time ive spent inside...it was 3 yrs after all..thinking that im was wasting this 3 yeats...seriously, this problem already started bothering me during sec 2..it isnt that i cant study, just that i am really TOO lazy to do so :x let my parents down, -sighx-

hehe..busy playing with cards and patoring nowadays...ahh.. im an adult u know :x

AFTER ALL..

LIFE IS NOTHING EXCEPT A DAILY ROUTINE OF WORK...

AND THAT'S THE BOTTOM LINE...

Ar...my long post also like tt onli..haix :x

rock on!

2004-09-19T17:38:00.000+08:00

Rock On!

Determined.

2004-09-08T13:17:00.000+08:00

Study la. No time to blog :x

Until then, take care :)

Blog Under Revamping..C r e s t f a l l e n 's H e a v e n

2004-08-29T21:01:00.000+08:00

well, juz too happy for words..kinda miss those days..now talk! :)

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2004-08-20T19:46:00.000+08:00

..Too long never blog le..

Spent my day @ sch today hanging around..had a nice hockey game in da rain after school :x cool !

Just too my O's English Oral yesterday, think i'll do fine with it, no problem dude :)

Ok, That's all! simple and sweet :)

National Day..

2004-08-09T21:44:00.000+08:00

What else? it's National Day!

Haha, tell u all, if u next time u all wan see fireworks from national stadium or esplanade there...come my house can liao...except for a few buildings my house here can see everything :x

National day leh, Singapore's 39th Berthday... :/ Time past so fast..still remember walking down the streets..looking at the 33rd National's Day banner..haix...

The firework really rocked aniwae..

HAHAHA..Singapore Idol was a joke! Seems like singaporeans enjoys fame from another way...

...

2004-08-04T20:49:00.000+08:00

...Been recieving complains on dropping of my blog entries ..pai seh la :x

ain't paying alot of attention in blogging this past week, kinda lazy..ahaha..listening to Ou De Yang's Xin Fu Che Zhan while posting this..sho nice, kinda meaningful..

See sho mani things ard me in school everyday..getting easily tired nowadays..am i getting old? :x slept for the whole nite yesterday..wah seh break me record..from 8 to 6 :x

Dear friends, conflicts r meant to be solve.. a willing party that is willing to take the initiative might just bring everything back to the past, a moment of anguish might just break off ur friendship for someone else..i triely believe that the other party had no intentions of this..

and..jiaying..dun complain me liao hor :D

btw..

Happy Birthday ChyeLong, guess u wun be seeing this aniway :)

hahahah

2004-07-25T21:14:00.002+08:00

Hehe..4 Days Never Blog Liao, Pai Seh Hor :D

Hehe, has really been lazy for this past 4 days, ain't in da mood to blog you see:x Aniwae, school days really suck to the core the past week as nothing interesting went about in school. Argh, that sucks. Ain't feeling well that either especially that i've juz recovered. Woah, piled up with tons of maths homework..wonder what is ms lim thinking, fancy giving homework like never see us do homework before lyk that, ahaha, i guess, we really need to brush up our work for the coming O's...

I'm thinking, especially these few wks, that i'm somehow different to the "old me". In some ways..ahaha, good or bad, i dunkoe. Well, i guess one cant make an accurate account of himself rite? Maybe im feeling happier then before..ahah..let this be kept within me :p

Kinda bored weekend, attended npcc training yesterday..Well..it's still ok to me, just that maybe some of our expectations went up too high and had some minor conflicts with the sir's...Hmm, i've no comments on this either..I guess, this should be the way npcc be..haha, btw, the NCC's really funny with their marching parade. lol.

A typical sunday, at home, usually...ahaha..

:D

2004-07-21T19:55:00.000+08:00

terribly sick..

thx my dad, for da animation above :D

Well, this 2 days has been really terrible for me..felt so lethargic..esp after seeing da doctor 2 nites back..kaoz..didnt even had da mood to go to school..

actually was planning to go to school today, but somehow, was slping soundly last until a splitting headache woke me up...in da end, i vomitted and went back to slp..ar, so jialat..

today pratically nth to do, so bored, feeling so sick, lethargic, ah omg..can someone save me..i miss my dear sho much... :(

haix, hope tmr i'll be okay tmr....and when that's accomplished..i'll be back :D

If this animation works i would lyk to thank jiaying for this html code :)

Hehehe..

2004-07-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

This is a summary for 2 days...

Friday, practically a tired day..Went to school, recieve notification that every uniform group members are to attend a 3 wks rehearsal for the school's national day celebration..Which i dun really mind..Here comes the problem..Every of my np friend like dun wan go for the training..ar..im so depressed..

After that..i had PE lessons...Concidentally, another class also hafing PE lessons..So Sekeran suggested a class basketball match. Our girls did well..Won..and injured a player lolx!! x.x evil 4G* The Boys, did practically ok, most of us in the team are new to basketball..and we lost by 2 points..kinda over my expectation ahah.. Anyway, Yiming's a great player. x.x Played with him and his tall companion 2 days in a row..Disaster..! Well, we lost :) After P.E .. we had science lessons..damn stupid lor, after PE where got concentration to study science...kao..felt so sleepy in class..zZ

Went to mac after school, with boon they all..ar..suffer a cramp on the bridge..causing public attention...luckily, a passerby *Ahma* help me wif my cramp and it slightly slimmers down..kaoz, im being molested. x.x btw. THANK YOU AH MA :) o.O!

Today, cant go for npcc training due because today my ahgong death anniversary..seeing his photo really reminds me of those old days..and how fast time can fly past..aniway..went all the way to toa payoh..x.x stupid toothache..my mum said im too heaty inside me..hence my tooth is affected..ouch..

[Message to friends]
well, jiaying thank me in her blog yea..x.x i appreciate that..xiexie :p

xinmei, always look on the bright side of life :)

take care everyone :)

Arent..

2004-07-15T19:28:00.000+08:00

Toothache!!!

Wah piang! Toothache yesterday, until now still got side effects! i endure ! i die die also wun see dentist! :x lata he pluck off my precious tooth i bo gei hor x.x -sighx-

Today is a very relax schoolday practically, except that i nv complete my maths homework and was punished for one n a half period standing :x nvm, i gai si de :/ heng ar, after school maths teacher got course.. or else today total we got 7 periods of maths which is equivalent to 35 mins x 7 = 245 mins of maths lessons. kaoz, morning ist 2 period maths liaoz.. brain cells halved..

Yesh! i got my maths probability test back! got 59 % this time. muahah, but i muz still becareful, im always careless in my test this yr hence im nt able to score higher...i will be more careful in future..

Jaya was caught wearing his "pink undies" with amos's "newly" brought N6230. Indeed nth 2 proud about. i given him a nickname.."Pink Panther". nice eh? :x sorry jaya.

spent bucks on somethings just a while ago in tiong bahru plaza. didnt know where i spent the money. Think...it should be the taxi fare and the food ma. Im having such a great appetite yet my toothache comes around this corner! bloody hell . ^(*#^(*^@*^%&%&#(*@

Next Saturday got npcc training..for national day..haiz, reminds me of sec 1 days. The reason i stayed in npcc until now because i believe it can help me to develop my characters. Until this year, i found out that even if u r willing to stay in the team u're nt evenly appreciated. So, i rather spend my time hanging around elsewhere..

Arh..Mention TBP...met jiaying and her clicks just now, wad concidence. Sitting beside jiaying in class whole day..was a terrible ordeal. She today lyk ki siao, kept pushing my head down and smacking my head..even if i suffer from concussion i also dun forget u one..Gan Jiaying :x kk. sorry "dad" :x

What nice entry i had today :P

Take care everyone till i see u once again..

sad

2004-07-13T19:24:00.000+08:00

came online, read a few blogs, seen a few msn users.. why all sound so sad..

haiz, nth 2 say, im kept in suspense.

until then, take care everyone.

phew

2004-07-11T18:26:00.000+08:00

really lazy to blog..

Joke of the day..:)

2004-07-09T22:12:00.000+08:00

Today is a friday, a weekend, a school day, and a funny day.

Played basketball just now. Freakingly funny. I CANT BELIEVE THAT SOMEONE CAN SHOOT IN AN OWN GOAL WITH SUCH GRACE AND CONFIDENCE. Unbelivable.. In the end, we lost by 2 points. Bloody suay.

Hmm, maths test today, dun think can get A.. but think can pass of above avrg, quite confident..ate in class today, kanna caught by miss lim :x so suay.

...Rumours fly, this time im the victim, jaya. u suck-.-

I Love You :)

HAH

2004-07-08T21:46:00.000+08:00

Any words now can't describe the joy in my heart.

C r e s t f a l l e n ' s H e a v e n

comprehend

woah

all

=)

wish?

LOL

time.

what can i say

31dec2005

..

aaah

...

manzu

..

notime

nomoney

..

aaa

..

back.!

errr

1line

..

hahaha..

importance

...

sleep.

HI!

bo liaos.

yaws

lols.

wahah

31dec

shrink

aitz

zzzz..

zzz

fuckedup

hao nannn

aaa

electricity

wee..

...

sick

weee !

....

yawns

rawks.

short

...

...

zzzz

haha

human.

newcomp.

zhun

hmm....

lets count..

titles..?

jie shou ?

....

xin ku..

...

smile !

hehs.

erhhh.

爱 错

sometimes..

looking ahead.

hahaha..

it's true..

it's true..

...

...sigh.

new year eve

d e s o l a t e d

hai..

Encore

....

爱错